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I am completely in love with natural hair... (my dreads... and anyone else's hair) and make up  I usually where the earth tones and neutral colors... but now bright and color excites me.... I'm dying to try different designs... and color schemes...


Can't wait to order from my new found lover...
<http://www.cherryculture.com/>

I want to try out the base I keep hearing about...  




The next thing I need to do is figure out what color foundation I need... Ugh...  Why can' I get it together??? lol

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My Hair Update

A new style for my highlights...

Jus goofying off in the bathroom

The day of my bday...

Showing off my makeup...

My fav style I've ever had...

I loved the front...

I love this...

I loved the top...

left side...

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So yesterday Bae  said that she wants to get married next year. Totally took me off guard!!! Started asking me all types of questions... what types of wedding ring I'd want... Now my mind is all messed up! lol...

SN: sex last night was... TOO damn good... I was knocked out cold! messing with her and that damn peanut! lol

Anyway...  I've been thinking about colors and places... ugh.. I mean I'm not much of a planner... But I'm really anxious... not to mention I want Toya as my forever... I keep thinking about a wedding without my mom... What kind of wedding would that be?? But I guess... its something I'll have to deal with when the time comes....

I was really taken a back when she bought  it up to me... Like its random conversation to tell someone you wanna marry them next year! WTH! Tallking bout I'm not getting any younger! REALLY!?!?! WTFH!? a mess... 

Random...

             How can mother's day be without a mother? Without that one person who is always in your corner... always willing to lend her ear and never bring the conversation back to her... always let her life be about her children? The best anyone has ever had... she has her own holiday and isn't around to let me celebrate her...  I miss my mom so much... I miss talking to her every morning before I go to work... or late at night when I'm frustrated....  who is going to be here to give me wisdom now? What am I to do?

R.I.P. to the best mother I ever had...

Today is the day that we celebrate your home going… we stand in awe at the lives your have touched.. hearts you have filled… souls you have saved without knowing…

We are so happy that God waited …

                Waited for us to be established… waited for to grow in love… waited for us to come into our own…   we celebrate even though we are unhappy… unhappy that he has taken the best and only mother we’ve ever known. ..

                We will keep your memory alive thru our hearts.. thru our thoughts and for some of us your memory cannot be rubbed from our faces…  your home going has made us weak yet,  as we stand together we become each others braces.

                Today is the day we bowed down to the way you loved your family…you loved us with strength…  you loved us with no mistake…  you loved even though our actions were undeserving …  your laughs were contagious… your jokes always brought life… there are so many things about you that are worth preserving .

We will miss the way you were always there…

Always there to lend a word… to lend a minute… to lend hours… never afraid to reach out and slap people with your heart… this is the reason why scream… why we cry… this is the reason why we seemingly fall apart..

In unison we miss you and with our hearts we kiss you… today is the day we come to tell you that you were appreciated… you are loved…

Today is the day we, your family, unite in your memory and applaud the luck we have had… to have kissed you… to have held you… to have been made by you...to have had you in our lives...  we are so glad… 

 8/19/1955-4/8/2011...

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Your love leaves me breathless… leaves me feeling empty… when you’re away… away from my arms.. far from my eyes…

Your love tickles my thoughts.. leave me restless.. when the bed is empty… back cold where your beast would lay… far from the pillows… a step from my dreams…

Your love leaves me wondering… leaves me feeling like the world is over if you don’t smile... If you don’t laugh and give me the part that is only for me…

Your love leaves my stomach doing flips long after you’re gone… long after your scent lingers in my nose… Leaves me greedy… inhaling your love like it’s the air I need...

Your love leaves me high… reaching for more.. leaves me falling deeper.. feeling drunker… looking prouder when you’re near…

Your love leaves my body aching… weak when I don’t have a weekly dose… cup full of touches.. tablespoon of hugs.. teaspoon of kisses…

Your loves leaves me dizzy from the way you run your kisses over my heart… twisted from the way your hands touch me..

You love leaves me wanting nothing more than to be near you… than to kiss your lips.. feel your touch.. be in your arms…  leaves me only wanting to be with you…

I love you… Latoya Maise…

A Great Beginning to a New Year...

I have had so much fun!!! 2011 is the year for me to do some real grown up shit. I have the greatest woman by my side, she keeps me grounded.... keeps me from falling into the many depths of the world.  I have a job that pays, not anything great... but it keeps the bills paid and my shopping habits at bay... I have the ability to go out and have a great time with friends... some old.. some new... but all the same.. friends...  I do miss my family though... It seems like everyone is getting they're own lives and we're just not as close as we used to be.. I'm beginning to feel like my friends are my family... more so than the blood relatives I have... But eventually everybody growns up.. or disappears... I pray for everybody.. and just keep going about my life... guess it's all apart of life's cycle...  so for now... I'll just love my own made family...

I am losing the weight that I've had on me for so long... weight of other people's problems... weight of other people's secrets... my past... I've watched it all shed from my body... and I'm loving it... I love waking up to the tv still going from the night before and the soft arm wrapped around me...  I love working out every morning... ok maybe not that... but I love thinking of the end result.. so I get my ass up and go to the gym... I just want to live my life for me... and not worry about other people... and I'm not... and I won't... worrying about other people gets you no where but tired and sleepy... All of the decision I make from this year on out will be with my best interest in mind... with my future in mind.. Right now I have everything that I need in my life... everything else.. is a work in progress... and failure isn't an option...